It is Time

Today. It's officially May 20, 2010. The very day I have counted down to for the past two years. Man, God is good! Scratch that. God is AWESOME! I have tears rolling down my cheeks as I just finished these first few sentences. I am in utter awe of the way God has gone before me in Nursing school. I reflect on the my very first, awkward, uncomfortable, first semester in college at SBU. I was sitting in my Anatomy & Physiology I class as a little freshman, and I felt the Lord speaking to my heart, so I grabbed a pen and a sticky note, and I wrote this:

"Kayla- You can do this nursing thing if you study hard and focus on me. I am your guide. I will help you. I will never forsake you. -God"

I came across the sticky note not too long ago, and I cried over it. How God has been my guide. How He has helped me. How He has never forsaken me. Not one time. My heart is SO overwhelmed with gratitude, thanksgiving, honor, and respect for my King...

What I am most excited about is not the fact that I am an Registered Nurse, but that I have fulfilled another step in my walk with the Lord. I obeyed Him. I obeyed His leading into St. John's Nursing School. I trusted Him. I believed in Him. I worked for Him. All the glory for every passed test and completed clinical day totally went/goes to Him. I knew He was the one doing all of the work. It was easy for me to pass the honor to Him. And, it still is. I am excited because I know that the next thing that is coming my way is even MORE exciting.

Not because I deserve it. Not because I work hard. Not because He owes me anything, but because He loves me. And because I obey Him.

Some of you know... I never wanted to be a nurse. I took a nurse aid class my last year in High School, and that was it for me. That was the deal-breaker for me. I hated it. The idea of me spending my life in a hospital was appalling. I wanted to be a Worship Leader. God gifted me with voice, and all I wanted to do was glorify Him the rest of my life and speak to others about using their voice in worship. It was my ONLY passion.

When God started closing the doors on the only college that offered a degree in Worship Leading, I became bitter. Very bitter toward Him. When only College of Nursing doors were opening, I became even more bitter. Yet, I obeyed Him. I didn't understand why, how, or what my future was going to look like with a nursing degree, but I trusted the Lord. I knew He knows best. So, I followed His leading.

After stepping out in faith, and completing my first semester, the Lord showed me more than I could ever imagine about my future. He definitely hadn't cut ministry off from me, but opened the doors wider for bigger, greater, more effective ministry. Missions. Beautiful. Terrified. Intrigued. But I will go, Father. I will go. I will do anything you want me to. I'm all for You and Your glory.

So here I am. Not knowing entirely what the future looks like, but knowing that God has blessed me with a job. Not just any job, but a full time position that is going to allow me to pay off my loans quicker, get the best experience, work under the best director, and train me for what is yet to come.

And I know. I KNOW that the BEST IS YET TO COME!